I was wondering, what should I do? Should I continue trying this, or should I step back. I am not initiated yet, but that is of my own choice, I have been studying for a while, and I have only just now read my first rites, and have began my year and a day. It's not like I am a complete beginner, I know my herbs and stones, love working with runes and sigils, and have been studying all the moon phases, planetary hours, and have already the beginnings of my initial tools(Bolin, Athame, BOS, Censer, ect..).
If you have any answers, would be interested in working with me, or just want to talk, my Deadjournal(what I use more often) address is www.deadjournal.com/users/nearlyforgotte
-Kaelan Talib Akera